Paris Hilton has confirmed she fell pregnant with model and former fiance Jason Shaw before having a abortion aged 22 in 2003.
The reality star, now 42, who previously revealed she terminated her pregnancy because she was ‘not ready for a baby’, said sexual abuse at boarding schools meant she wasn’t ‘capable of being whole’ in an extract from her tome, Paris: The Memoir.
Hilton first met Tommy Hilfiger model Shaw, now 49, outside the Four Seasons in LA in 2001 with the pair getting engaged the following year. Their romance ended in 2003.
In an extract from her memoir per Time Magazine, she wrote about discovering she was pregnant in November 2003: ‘I was terrified and heartsick. The hormones sent my ADHD symptoms spiraling. Everything I knew about myself was at war with everything I’d been raised to believe about abortion.
‘I knew I wasn’t in the right place to make any sort of commitment. It had nothing to do with him or a baby. I just wasn’t capable of being honest or loyal or whole.
Exes Paris Hilton has confirmed she fell pregnant with model Jason Shaw before having a abortion aged 22 in 2003 (pictured 2002)
‘After suffering abuse at Provo Canyon School and three other programs within the “troubled teen” industry network, I was damaged in ways I couldn’t tell him about, and the fact that I never confided in him about my past—that says it all, doesn’t it? Secrets are corrosive. They destroy anything you try to layer over them.
Paris said she has constantly looked back with sorrow on her termination, and ‘tortured myself with melodrama—thoughts like, what if I killed my Paris?’ – but realizes motherhood in her 202s would have been a ‘train wreck.’
The star also opened up about ‘controlling her reproductive destiny’ and going through IVF with husband Carter Reum, which involved: ‘Month after month of injections, several egg-harvesting procedures, more IVF injections, new ADHD meds, my natural state of chaos—it was a lot.’
The pair are now parents to son Phoenix, who was born via surrogate in January.
The heiress to the £11.6 billion Hilton hotels empire has detailed in her memoir the sexual abuse she endured hwhen her parents sent her to boarding schools for troubled youths in a bid to tame her rebellious behaviour.
At one of the schools, Provo Canyon School in the US state of Utah, Paris said she was sometimes drugged before being molested.
‘I swallowed the pills and stared at the wall with the flawless mask of a runway model,’ she writes in an excerpt published yesterday in The Times.
Past: Hilton first met Tommy Hilfiger model Shaw, now 49, outside the Four Seasons in LA in 2001 with the pair getting engaged the following year. Their romance ended in 2003 (pictured 2002)
Parents: The star also opened up about ‘controlling her reproductive destiny’ and going through IVF with husband Carter Reum (pictured last month)
Baby: Hilton has just become a mother, having announced this January that she and her husband Carter welcomed their son Phoenix via surrogate
‘Whatever they were giving me made me feel like my head was disconnected from my body.
‘That scared me, so I tucked the capsules inside my lower lip and waited for an opportunity to spit them out.
‘The staff at Provo had their favourites. Always pretty girls. But I don’t think it was about pretty.
‘I think these were weak people in the outside world, men and women who got off on the power they had over us.
‘They took us to the infirmary and made us lie on the table. Made us open our legs for their stubby fingers. If we resisted, there was always a tray with syringes.
‘I don’t know what was in the ‘booty juice’, but I saw kids hit the floor the moment it was injected.’
At another school she recalls being awoken in the middle of the night, manhandled and then handcuffed when workers at the school arrived to take her away.
‘I was sound asleep at about 4.30 in the morning when my bedroom door crashed open.
‘A thick hand grabbed my ankle and dragged me off the mattress. I was instantly awake – hyperawake – in a state of panic. I’m about to be raped. I’m about to be murdered.
‘One man clamped a sweaty palm over my mouth, wrenching my head back. The other held up a pair of handcuffs.’
Hilton grew up living in New York’s Waldorf Astoria Hotel with her parents, Rick and Kathy Hilton, and her younger siblings, Nicky, Barron and Conrad.
Her parents sent her to ‘therapeutic’ boarding schools run by a company called CEDU when she was 15 after their attempts to discipline her for sneaking out to nightclubs failed.
She attended four different CEDU establishments before leaving aged 18.
She never told her parents about any of the abuse at the schools – saying staff threatened that she would never be able to leave if she did.
Milestone: Paris recently revealed that she hid her baby’s birth from even her family until right before she broke the news on social media (pictured)
Paris rose to fame in her early 20s thanks to her starring role alongside fellow socialite Nicole Richie in hit TV series The Simple Life, which saw the pair take on jobs such as serving in fast-food restaurants.
She then started modelling after signing with former US president Donald Trump’s agency, T Management.
Her notoriety reached another level when a sex tape featuring her and boyfriend Rick Salomon was leaked in 2004.
In a statement on its website in 2020, officials at Provo Canyon school said the institution was under different ownership prior to 2000, and ‘therefore cannot comment on the operations or patient experience prior to that time’.
